this is what happens to your brainwritten @ 6:43 p.m. on 2005-03-26
::i'll give you my body just sell me your soul::
i am weird.
shit. sorry, you knew that right?
okay so nothing fun has happened as of late. oh except i made a collage of some of my drawings on the apartment wall. the wall that people put their hands on to balance themselves while removing their shoes. it's really nice. ohh! nicole! and fruity lips helped with proper placement. there is so much of me on the walls. it's amazing. it looks really good. remind me again why i'm not rich? OHH!! yeah! i forgot, i'm lazy as shit! damn.
i really really really really REALLY want to get a few good books on palmistry. i have been paying much attention to not only my hands but the hands of others lately. i know so little, and would love to learn more. it's too bad i'm that fucking lazy and i never went to visit my aunt susy up north. she told me she had all sorts of things and books and information on those sorts of things she would love to share with me. i think i really like my dad's side of the family like WAYYYY more than my mom's. my dad's side is amazingly laid back...i think i am a lot like my dad. i've been thinking about that a lot lately. he and i seem to be getting along so well it's crazy. and people keep telling me how much i look like him (of course, the cuter, younger female version of him that is.). it's silly that after all these years of not even being able to speak to eachother, i break free and learn just how alike we are. my mom told me that he keeps telling her how proud of me he is for getting out on my own and trying so hard to keep my head up. he's always helping me out whenever he can....i haven't even seen him angry with me since before i moved to west branch.
i've been feeling a bit nostalgic today. reading some old reads and spying on journals i shouldn't need to read. i just want to know how their lives are going. lissa moved back in with her parents and broke up with corry. i'm really proud of her, it was a big step to take and she did it. i want to help her as much as i can. i have been "feeling" her more often lately...i know i'm crazy but i've always been able to sense her. once or twice i've felt her when she was in an exceptionally bad place. lately i have been feeling a better vibe, i think she is really coming out of her abyss..she's so scared though. i wish i could make it better.
i miss typing for long periods of time. i like the sound of the keys being pushed. and considering how little i get to use the internets, my typing skills have gone up a level i think. i wish we had internets at the apartment. maybe i don't. another distracion from not being lazy.
someone teach me how to make a portfolio? and prints of my stuff? please? i would like very much to have these skills.
dont wish upon a falling star